Letting Go............
Loss happens. To everyone. It can be horrific. It can be graceful. We will never know the end of our story until we are there. But, for certain, the ones left behind mourn. It is perfectly natural. We are not "desensitized" to our close loved ones leaving. It can be traumatic for some. And loving for others. This blog is not just about learning to let our loved ones go so they can come back. It is also learning to let go when times of worry or concern come up. Trusting we are in great hands. The hands of the Universe. However you choose to see it.
In the process of working through my own grief after my father returning Home. I recently discovered that, on my path to wellness, I hadn't truly let him go. I didn't even know I hadn't until someone hit a nerve. And it was a blessed thing.
Some while back, I had the honor of finding myself in the middle of a ceremony. A ceremony to release a soul. So, here I was surrounded by drumbeats, asking my father to forgive me. It had just been not long after his angelversary and I didn't feel like I could feel him around anymore. And, in the middle of my "flare-ups" I look at his picture and ask him to help. Hell, I practically beg him.
Anyways, when I was asked to be forgiven for keeping him Here. That little niggly spot popped up. I knew something hidden (that's what a blindspot is and sometimes we need someone else to help us get to it) had been reached.
I truly was keeping my father here through all of my begging and pleading. For answers to my health problem. So, I cut him away. I want you to understand that it wasn't like he was in limbo. It was he had been taken Home, and he let us know a week later he was good. It had everything to do with me holding him back by calling on him ALL the time. I was preventing him from moving completely into his role over There. I was stifling it. Which meant I was stifling my ability. My Knee Jerk ego was interfering. It was not true love I was operating under.
So, over the weekend that followed, I found myself walking upstairs to glance down at a dolphin that was from an adventure my parents had had. It was a glaring reminder, and forever will be, of the time I assumed something and was given a Universal spanking.
It hit me. I had my father's knee-jerk reaction as part of my personality. And I really had to let that go in order to be helped in so many different ways. The biggest of all is learning to look at someone with love. At ALL times. The world of Uncondintional. I could not be the person I am if I was still hanging on to that. Letting go. Letting THAT and my dad go. In other words, stop crying for help. YOU have the answers. Just let it go.
And you will never believe how my world has opened up since that moment. It is truly unbelievable and I cannot wait to share! I am truly humbled, and eternally grateful, to those who have facilitated some Spiritual Healing for a shining star. Thank you for helping me shine. Even brighter. Than I EVER knew was possible.
Watch out world!
Loss happens. To everyone. It can be horrific. It can be graceful. We will never know the end of our story until we are there. But, for certain, the ones left behind mourn. It is perfectly natural. We are not "desensitized" to our close loved ones leaving. It can be traumatic for some. And loving for others. This blog is not just about learning to let our loved ones go so they can come back. It is also learning to let go when times of worry or concern come up. Trusting we are in great hands. The hands of the Universe. However you choose to see it.
In the process of working through my own grief after my father returning Home. I recently discovered that, on my path to wellness, I hadn't truly let him go. I didn't even know I hadn't until someone hit a nerve. And it was a blessed thing.
Some while back, I had the honor of finding myself in the middle of a ceremony. A ceremony to release a soul. So, here I was surrounded by drumbeats, asking my father to forgive me. It had just been not long after his angelversary and I didn't feel like I could feel him around anymore. And, in the middle of my "flare-ups" I look at his picture and ask him to help. Hell, I practically beg him.
Anyways, when I was asked to be forgiven for keeping him Here. That little niggly spot popped up. I knew something hidden (that's what a blindspot is and sometimes we need someone else to help us get to it) had been reached.
I truly was keeping my father here through all of my begging and pleading. For answers to my health problem. So, I cut him away. I want you to understand that it wasn't like he was in limbo. It was he had been taken Home, and he let us know a week later he was good. It had everything to do with me holding him back by calling on him ALL the time. I was preventing him from moving completely into his role over There. I was stifling it. Which meant I was stifling my ability. My Knee Jerk ego was interfering. It was not true love I was operating under.
So, over the weekend that followed, I found myself walking upstairs to glance down at a dolphin that was from an adventure my parents had had. It was a glaring reminder, and forever will be, of the time I assumed something and was given a Universal spanking.
It hit me. I had my father's knee-jerk reaction as part of my personality. And I really had to let that go in order to be helped in so many different ways. The biggest of all is learning to look at someone with love. At ALL times. The world of Uncondintional. I could not be the person I am if I was still hanging on to that. Letting go. Letting THAT and my dad go. In other words, stop crying for help. YOU have the answers. Just let it go.
And you will never believe how my world has opened up since that moment. It is truly unbelievable and I cannot wait to share! I am truly humbled, and eternally grateful, to those who have facilitated some Spiritual Healing for a shining star. Thank you for helping me shine. Even brighter. Than I EVER knew was possible.
Watch out world!
I want to thank you so much for all you have done for me. I am so so thankful that the Universe brought you back into my life. I believe you and I were meant to be life long friends that drifted apart for a bit. I believe that you were meant to be in my life when I needed someone the most as a child and then brought back to me when I needed someone the most as an adult. I will be forever grateful to you. I am working really hard on letting her go and it is getting easier. Not completely ready but getting there. I do not ever want to drift apart again. Sending all my love...
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