Intentions. We must be careful what we wish for, for you will never know just how quickly a wish will manifest. It can be shocking at times. And there is definitely a period of adjustment. However, it is as easy as saying it that "it" can happen. Once again, my "it" was today.
I must start off by saying, that I absolutely adore my mother. When I first came out to her as an intuitive, it was awkward at best for me. My statement of "I'm just like (so and so). I can do that. I can communicate with the Other Side" was met with something to the effect of "Well, it does bring comfort to people." Nothing more. The hardest part was over for me. Or so I thought.
Today while being dropped off from a round of golf, a complete stranger had mistaken my place for next door and what followed was a conversation that ended quite abruptly thanks to me. You see, not that long ago I was pondering grieving and when it is appropriate time to see a Medium. As a Medium it is my responsibility to not disrupt the grieving process. While I firmly believe that everything happens when it is supposed to, being reached by a recently passed loved one has the potential to interrupt a necessary part of grieving. And that is the grieving itself.
So, that being said, and me being who I am, I decided to have a conversation with the big guy in the sky. The conversation went something to the effect that while I didn't want to disrupt my mother's grieving process, I wanted to bring her some level of comfort. Of course, it's only been two months and would seem to be WAY too soon. So, naturally I put the "let it happen on your time" basically surrendering myself to the process.
Along with this conversation, I also needed to start naturalizing the conversation around being a psychic medium. It is not a common language spoken, so I need to be given opportunities in order to normalize it (not that it, or I, are normal - no one is). So I asked to be given the opportunity again, at His will, surrendering to the process.
That brings us up to being dropped off by mother after a round of golf. A conversation ensued with the lady who had the wrong place. It surrounded quilting and went to her health, which of course led to conversation about dad crossing over. At some point age was brought up to which I responded "Don't let me fool you, I am 41". Which was met with the usual "you look so young!". After which followed, "And what do you do here?". And then came the pause......then the response, "I'm an intuitive". Again, another pause for effect, "And what does that mean?". To which I responded, "If you believe that we go on once we physically die here, I can connect with the Other Side. I'm a Psychic Medium". At this point my mom said something about it which I didn't really hear because I was too busy looking at the lady I just told I was psychic. I then saw that she was struggling with the concept and relayed the three deer examples of connecting with my dad and that I help people establish that connection. I could see it was some food for thought for her and shortly thereafter my mother hopped into her car, drove away, and I went inside as the lady walked away..............and that is okay.
What I realized after I had a chance to "check in" and get grounded once again was that what I had asked for I got. Not only did I ask for a chance to normalize conversations around what I do for a living, I asked that when the time was right that I would be able to offer mom some comfort without overstepping the boundaries. In one conversation, my conversation (prayer) was answered. I asked not even two days ago.
Energy and the use of it (intentions) is something we can all nurture. Remembering it is for the better, and in the best interest of others.
I must start off by saying, that I absolutely adore my mother. When I first came out to her as an intuitive, it was awkward at best for me. My statement of "I'm just like (so and so). I can do that. I can communicate with the Other Side" was met with something to the effect of "Well, it does bring comfort to people." Nothing more. The hardest part was over for me. Or so I thought.
Today while being dropped off from a round of golf, a complete stranger had mistaken my place for next door and what followed was a conversation that ended quite abruptly thanks to me. You see, not that long ago I was pondering grieving and when it is appropriate time to see a Medium. As a Medium it is my responsibility to not disrupt the grieving process. While I firmly believe that everything happens when it is supposed to, being reached by a recently passed loved one has the potential to interrupt a necessary part of grieving. And that is the grieving itself.
So, that being said, and me being who I am, I decided to have a conversation with the big guy in the sky. The conversation went something to the effect that while I didn't want to disrupt my mother's grieving process, I wanted to bring her some level of comfort. Of course, it's only been two months and would seem to be WAY too soon. So, naturally I put the "let it happen on your time" basically surrendering myself to the process.
Along with this conversation, I also needed to start naturalizing the conversation around being a psychic medium. It is not a common language spoken, so I need to be given opportunities in order to normalize it (not that it, or I, are normal - no one is). So I asked to be given the opportunity again, at His will, surrendering to the process.
That brings us up to being dropped off by mother after a round of golf. A conversation ensued with the lady who had the wrong place. It surrounded quilting and went to her health, which of course led to conversation about dad crossing over. At some point age was brought up to which I responded "Don't let me fool you, I am 41". Which was met with the usual "you look so young!". After which followed, "And what do you do here?". And then came the pause......then the response, "I'm an intuitive". Again, another pause for effect, "And what does that mean?". To which I responded, "If you believe that we go on once we physically die here, I can connect with the Other Side. I'm a Psychic Medium". At this point my mom said something about it which I didn't really hear because I was too busy looking at the lady I just told I was psychic. I then saw that she was struggling with the concept and relayed the three deer examples of connecting with my dad and that I help people establish that connection. I could see it was some food for thought for her and shortly thereafter my mother hopped into her car, drove away, and I went inside as the lady walked away..............and that is okay.
What I realized after I had a chance to "check in" and get grounded once again was that what I had asked for I got. Not only did I ask for a chance to normalize conversations around what I do for a living, I asked that when the time was right that I would be able to offer mom some comfort without overstepping the boundaries. In one conversation, my conversation (prayer) was answered. I asked not even two days ago.
Energy and the use of it (intentions) is something we can all nurture. Remembering it is for the better, and in the best interest of others.
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